What happened after week 32....

There is something MAGICAL about when a baby is laying on your chest sleeping. Words cannot even describe how much love is exchanged in that moment. I never imagined how BIG my HEART could feel until I had my 4 little loves. MY heart and MY love for all of them, grows daily. It's a love that shouldn't need effort. Unconditional love. The love that when they look at you and smile, your heart melts just a little more. After Parker's breathing treatment tonight, he snuggled up on me and fell asleep. I let it be. I enjoyed it. I took it in. My heart melted and I fell MORE IN LOVE with that little man! Possible you ask??? ABSOLUTELY!!!

Alright! Let's talk a little about Twin Pregnancy. I had another Mom (who is a Mom to a set of twins) ask me, if I felt a difference in a Singleton vs. Twin pregnancy. 

Honestly, I didn't feel that much different. The twins pregnancy was my 3rd pregnancy and I believe my body was pretty much well adjusted. It was crazy feeling limbs everywhere and not feeling like you can breathe. I remember getting out of bed or standing up from a sitting position and my belly was like a perfect box shape (especially towards the end). That is one of the differences that I noticed. When I just had one baby in there, I would still have a little wiggle room. No chance with 2 babies in ONE Belly! Especially when they were laying Head to Toe. 

Then the FUN begins...

Yep, I THOUGHT I was doing AWESOME!!! My weight gain was under average. I was still working. I was taking care of 2 kids, my husband, my household and I was still working out, doing Pure Barre. Until it all pretty much came to a SCREECHING HALT! 

You see, when I found out I was pregnant with twins my doctors told me that I should have everything done by 30 weeks because that's when MOST Mom's run into troubles. I didn't quite get it then though. I guess when I was living it, I didn't stress on that thought, it was unfamiliar to me which caused me to put it in the back of my mind... Plus, I definitely wasn’t focused on what could go wrong! WHY??? because I feel like if you worry about the worst, you start to freak out over nothing and then your WORRY becomes your REALITY. No Thank You, NOT for ME!

In my mind, MY pregnancy was going great! I felt Great! I looked Great! I was Great! Well, until I went in Labor and Delivery Triage (for a normal checkup) and they told me that I was contracting. WHAT! Hmmmm... NOT SO GREAT!!! No way, I thought. The nurse asked me, "Anne, do you know what a contraction feels like..." I said, "Well, I think so, but you could refresh my memory... it has been 3 1/2 years since I had one..." She tells me, "Ok, I will let you know when you're having one..." She then walks away and closes the curtain behind her. 

Hmmmm.... ok... I look at my Mom who is sitting there with me (like the Saint she is), and she asks me if I’m feeling any. I tell her NO. I don't feel a thing. MY Mom then says, "Dammit, I knew I should have made you sit in that wheelchair and wheeled you up here..." Really Mom! I am fine, was my response. I am not in LABOR I am only 32 weeks. There is NO WAY that I am in labor. Remember, I don't worry or FREAK OUT over NOTHING. Until they tell me that I am in labor and I AM having a baby, In MY mind I am NOT!

The Nurse comes back in after about 10 minutes and asks me, "Anne, have you felt any contractions..." I said, "No..." She said, "You're having them every 2 minutes." I said, "Oh.... That's not good..." She agreed. Then right then, I was in the middle of one and she pointed it out to me. I looked at her and laughed as I realized what a CONTRACTION felt like, again! Then I said to her, "Oh those, well then yea... I have been feeling them all morning..." ***DUMB A$$ MOMMY MOMENT***

Well then that was the start of a very LONG next 4 1/2 weeks. I was then scheduled to be at Triage 3 times a week for observation. I was hospitalized for 2 days, then released. Within 12 hours of being released, I was admitted again. I was having 7-11 contractions PER HOUR! I was in pre-term Labor. They gave me shots to develop the babies lungs. They gave me Magnesium Sulfate, to help stop labor and helps neurological development, They had me on a monitor for 7 days and at the end of the week. I had NO progress in my cervix so the doctors told me, that 7-11 contractions PER HOUR just looked like, that was MY norm. 

That's what MY body just felt like doing. After getting home, I was on "Take It Easy" watch... They told me that they really wanted to keep MY babies in there until at least 36 weeks. Juliana and Parker were born at 36 1/2 weeks. Both healthy as can be.

My point is this, no matter if you have One, Two or more babies in your baby house... Your pregnancy is going to be just that... YOUR pregnancy. Try to do your best to take care of YOURSELF. If you eat like crap you're gonna feel like crap. What I lived by was "Whatever Weight I put on, is weight I am going to have to WORK at, to take OFF!" I laugh a little, because after the twins, I am having one heck of a time this go round getting this weight off; 3rd pregnancy, now in my 30's... Oh yea, a whole different ball game, then my FIRST baby in my 20's!

Any, I tried to be present during all my pregnancy's. I tried NOT to feel "Over THEM" towards the end (which can be hard). I tried to really enjoy the stages of Pregnancy. You will get some woman who LOVE to be pregnant and feel their MOST BEAUTIFUL during their pregnancy and you will get women like me. I felt good. But I was never one to fall in love with actually being pregnant. I just fell in love with the little peanut(s) that were in my Belly.

If you're reading this and you're pregnant or you are planning on becoming pregnant. The BEST advice that I think I would share, is this... It's YOUR Pregnancy, Do what is BEST for YOU and YOUR baby. Try to focus on YOU and try not to worry about the little things. You may will have a point in the pregnancy when you are READY! Just try not to force that feeling.

I hope this is HELPFUL.

That's MY Nitty Gritty Truth, 
Anne