A Feeling of DEFEAT!
My house is quiet except for the faint volume of the Television that Bill is watching in the other room. I have 2 babies that are both sick, therefore my house being quiet is a miracle. Oh wait, I spoke to soon.... The sound of a cry just came from the Twins room. The real question now, is.... who will get up first to get the little man??? Looks like me! Isnt it funny that when both parents are home, the mother is always the one that "should" get up first??? Not always, but pretty darn close. Well in this case, with a little help from the Hubby, both twins are situated and fast asleep once again...
This whole kids being sick thing is for the birds. Not only do I feel horrible for my little loves who are sick but I also feel helpless since I cant take the sickness away. Selfishly... I'M TIRED! I feel like it wears me thin. On a "Normal" day I feel like I can conquer the world, 4 kids.... I laugh in the face of 4 kids.... (not really....) but, shhhhh!!! dont tell anyone!
On sick days, I have a hard time functioning. I mean babies that are normally calm and go with the flow, are screaming their heads off, fussing over everything... I mean thank God for the baby Bjorn. I'm not sure that I would actually be able to survive my day, if I didn't have the ability to carry at least one sick baby attached to my body.
Not to mention that I have Preston home. That's a whole different story, I felt like I was ignoring him all day and if I wasn't ignoring him, the poor little fella was getting the short answered, short tempered, impatient Mommy, that I PRIDE MYSELF on NOT being! It just sucked. I felt like everything he asked, this was my answer.... Sorry Buddy, No Mommy can't come play trucks with you.... Sorry Buddy, I'll be there in one minute to make you lunch..... Sorry Buddy, can you please TRY to wipe your own butt right now, THEN WASH YOUR HANDS really, really, really good. Remember Buddy, put the soap on your hands, scrub and THEN USE WATER. He seemed to be a trooper.
Maybe, just maybe sometimes "US" Mom's are harder on ourselves then we should be. Well at least in my case, I know I am. I like my world the way I like it! When it is out of control, I feel like I lose a little too.... Not a good feeling for me!
Preston made a cute comment yesterday, I feel its totally worth sharing!
Yesterday, Parker and Juliana were having a fussing war. It seemed like nothing I did worked. Of course, I rocking/dancing with them, telling them that it will be "OK" and that "Mommy feels so sad that they are sick.... I'm sorry my little love muffins...." and Preston chimes in (hands over ears) and says, "OH MY, Would the 2 of YOU, PLEASE STOP CRYING ALREADY..... Mommy, I just cant take it anymore...." Oh, Okay little man.... My response to Preston is this, "Buddy, this is their way of communicating, so we have to be patient. Plus they are not feeling well, so we really have to show them extra love too" But my response in MY HEAD, "HALLELUJAH...."
My point is this.... Yesterday was a down day for me, a day were I felt Mentally, Physically, not to mention Emotionally drained. Yesterday, I felt DEFEATED! I mentally shut down and just wanted to curl up and sleep until the morning.... WE HAVE THESE DAYS! WE MOVE PAST these days.
My suggestion would be, Try to find somewhere else in the part of the day, that you can take a short cut. Maybe order in dinner or don't pick up the toys with the kids the normal 3 times. Inform your husband, that you are having a defeated day, so when he comes home he will know the mental (or lack their of) state you are in.... Try to Regroup, take a hot shower and try to not dwell on these days, because the other days are so much better and completely out way these days!
I truly feel like when we have our defeated days, we grow an appreciation for our "Normal" days. At least I know, I DO!!!
That's MY Nitty Gritty Truth,
Anne
Bill "My Hubby" & Preston
This whole kids being sick thing is for the birds. Not only do I feel horrible for my little loves who are sick but I also feel helpless since I cant take the sickness away. Selfishly... I'M TIRED! I feel like it wears me thin. On a "Normal" day I feel like I can conquer the world, 4 kids.... I laugh in the face of 4 kids.... (not really....) but, shhhhh!!! dont tell anyone!
On sick days, I have a hard time functioning. I mean babies that are normally calm and go with the flow, are screaming their heads off, fussing over everything... I mean thank God for the baby Bjorn. I'm not sure that I would actually be able to survive my day, if I didn't have the ability to carry at least one sick baby attached to my body.
Not to mention that I have Preston home. That's a whole different story, I felt like I was ignoring him all day and if I wasn't ignoring him, the poor little fella was getting the short answered, short tempered, impatient Mommy, that I PRIDE MYSELF on NOT being! It just sucked. I felt like everything he asked, this was my answer.... Sorry Buddy, No Mommy can't come play trucks with you.... Sorry Buddy, I'll be there in one minute to make you lunch..... Sorry Buddy, can you please TRY to wipe your own butt right now, THEN WASH YOUR HANDS really, really, really good. Remember Buddy, put the soap on your hands, scrub and THEN USE WATER. He seemed to be a trooper.
Violet & Preston
Preston made a cute comment yesterday, I feel its totally worth sharing!
Yesterday, Parker and Juliana were having a fussing war. It seemed like nothing I did worked. Of course, I rocking/dancing with them, telling them that it will be "OK" and that "Mommy feels so sad that they are sick.... I'm sorry my little love muffins...." and Preston chimes in (hands over ears) and says, "OH MY, Would the 2 of YOU, PLEASE STOP CRYING ALREADY..... Mommy, I just cant take it anymore...." Oh, Okay little man.... My response to Preston is this, "Buddy, this is their way of communicating, so we have to be patient. Plus they are not feeling well, so we really have to show them extra love too" But my response in MY HEAD, "HALLELUJAH...."
My point is this.... Yesterday was a down day for me, a day were I felt Mentally, Physically, not to mention Emotionally drained. Yesterday, I felt DEFEATED! I mentally shut down and just wanted to curl up and sleep until the morning.... WE HAVE THESE DAYS! WE MOVE PAST these days.
My suggestion would be, Try to find somewhere else in the part of the day, that you can take a short cut. Maybe order in dinner or don't pick up the toys with the kids the normal 3 times. Inform your husband, that you are having a defeated day, so when he comes home he will know the mental (or lack their of) state you are in.... Try to Regroup, take a hot shower and try to not dwell on these days, because the other days are so much better and completely out way these days!
I truly feel like when we have our defeated days, we grow an appreciation for our "Normal" days. At least I know, I DO!!!
That's MY Nitty Gritty Truth,
Anne
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